By Starseed Dee 
People often question my desire to be selective or anti-social in some regard. If you block people out of your life or ignore them, they may criticize you as being avoidant or immature, even unhealed. I actually do not agree with this perspective. Before my awakening I desired to be in the company of others as often as possible, thinking that the bigger your friend’s list was, the more sociably accepted you were. This is a concept that social media also glorifies and mimics a lot of what most of us experienced as adolescents. I was raised in a very disciplined home, that glorified high GPAs over extracurricular activities. Any chance I received to go outside and explore with my siblings or the neighborhood kids, I did not hesitate to act upon. I have always had a strong affinity for nature and enjoying Earth’s natural habitats. I had friends but not many, as we often moved around. Being the daughter of nomadic entrepreneurs was no easy feat, and my role of being the “new girl” became something I had grown accustomed to. This required a strong sense of starting new things, and reinventing myself became second nature. Adapting to new areas, being exposed to different types of people, accents, and commonalities. This also came with a lot of judgment from my peers, critical selectiveness, and more often than not, the natural desire of said peers to exile me; most of whom had no clue who I was, or even what I was about. Every new town had a Regina George. And none of them ever liked me. I didn’t know then, it was because, of my energy.
When I became an adult and had the freedom to choose my activities, I fully explored the other side of that spectrum. As any wallflower would tell you, the other side does have its drawbacks. I understood many years later how this home dynamic that I once loathed was something I grew to admire. My spiritual activation assisted me in realizing just how precious my energy truly was and how grateful I am that I had the opportunity to develop my gifts very early on. Being comfortable on your own and in your own skin is often undervalued and subjugated by an expression based on low vibrational standards. Determining your own energy signature is extremely provisional to identify early on. This is something that I believe is stunted in environments where children grow up to glorify popularity over substance, solely relying on attention and shock value; making the most codependent, unauthentic, and shallow adults I have ever seen. I realize now that I have derived this skill of tenacity as contributing to becoming an independent adult and assisting in the aid of inspiring others to identify and own their individual energy.
Being a lightworker taught me that energy is very special, and whatever you put energy into directly impacts you in a great way. Today, I now know that I am sensitive to energies because I am an empath. But everyone is impacted by energy on some level and subconsciously we all allow it to navigate decisions in our lives. This is because energy is the currency of the universe. When you “pay” attention to something or someone, you buy that experience with the energetic intent you invest into it. So when you allow your consciousness to focus on someone or something that annoys you, you feed it your energy, and it reciprocates with the experience of being annoyed. The same goes for when you focus on someone or something that brings you joy, as you reflect back to you, what you put out into the universe. Now more often than not, as an empath, we can observe and detect the energy spectrum and avoid making these costly mistakes. Absorbing low vibrational energy is hazardous to your auric field and may delay your manifestation abilities, impact your immune system, and even bring upon untimely health issues such as anxiety, and stress.
Be selective in your focus because your attention feeds the energy of it and keeps it alive, not just within you, but in the collective consciousness as well. Be mindful of where your attention goes most often and powerfully, for that is what you are creating. What we choose to go looking for in life – the good or bad – can have a dramatic effect on not only our view of the world but on our sense of well-being as a result of that view. So whenever someone asks me why I tend to be anti-social at times, it is not because I am shy or do not like people. It is honestly not even ego. I am actually quite outgoing and naturally will adapt to people’s mannerisms in most situations. I will, however, protect my energy at all costs. This allows me to focus on keeping my vibrational output high and remain optimistic as possible. So remember, if you have experienced a disturbance in your aura, due to the energetic vibration of the world or people around you, keep in mind that these people or circumstances are seemingly out of your control. But if you protect your energy from them within, you take away its power over you and what you create. Your manifestations become solid, your intentions become spiritually bulletproof, and your focus becomes crystal clear. Attention goes where energy flows; because never forget that energy is everything.
Love and Light,
Honey Gaia